Jennifer Lopez (R) inHustlers(2019).Photo: STXfilms
Despite getting major accolades during that year’s awards season — including nominations at theGolden Globes,SAG AwardsandIndependent Spirit Awards— Lopez, 52, was left out of the Best Supporting Actress category at the 2020Academy Awards.
In her newNetflixdocumentaryHalftime, Lopez reads a September 2019 article fromGlamouron her phone in bed about positive reviews for her performance, and cries about the line, “Frankly, it’s thrilling to see a criminally underrated performer get her due from prestige film outlets.”
Thenominees that yearwereKathy BatesforRichard Jewell,Scarlett JohanssonforJojo Rabbit,Florence PughforLittle Women,Margot RobbieforBombshelland, the eventual winner,Laura DernforMarriage Story.Hustlersgot zero nominations.
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Lopez said in the documentary that she had difficulty sleeping the night before the nominations were announced, and she told herself, “It’s gonna happen, we’re gonna be good.”
While asleep that night, “I dreamt that it happened,” she said. But when she woke up and saw a text from someone and realized it didn’t happen, “I was like, ‘Oh, s—.’ "
In voiceover, Lopez said, “The truth is, I really started to think I was gonna get nominated. I got my hopes up because so many people were telling me I would be. And then it didn’t happen.”
“I had to ask myself, ‘What does that mean?’ I do this not for an award or do my hits up there and seem like I’m the best performer in the world,” said Lopez. “No, I do this to tell stories and to effect change and to connect with people and make them feel things because I wanna feel something. That’s why I do it. Because I actuallywanna make the world a better placein my own little way.”
She added, “At the end of the day, when somebody meets you they don’t go, ‘Oh my God, you have 12Grammys!’ They don’t say that. They go, ‘Oh my God, that song you wrote made me feel and got me through. When I saw you onstage, I realized I could be there too.’ "
Lopez said she’s going to “keep working,” despite the snub: “And I’m gonna be unafraid to get loud and use my voice in the best way that I can.”
The actress previously spoke aboutthe Oscarsdisappointment back in 2020, calling it a “bit of a letdown” and saying, “Igot so many good notices— more than ever in my career.”
She added at the time duringOprah Winfrey’s 2020 Vision: Your Life In Focus Tour, “Most of my team has been with me for years. I think they had a lot of hopes on that. They wanted it too, and I felt like I let everybody down a little bit.”
“I needed to go through the Oscar snub, theSuper Bowlbeing, you know, what it is — all of the things that I went through in the last year,” she added at the time, noting that after being rewarded and let down, she realized, " ‘Oh my God, I don’t need that. I’m actually here and I am okay and I am enough. I don’t need this award right here to tell me I’m enough. I don’t need it.’ "
Halftimeis now streaming on Netflix.
source: people.com
