Meri Brownis worried about the division in her family on this week’sSister Wives.

After the women forgave each other for the misunderstanding, Meri called Kody’s rules “a bunch of B.S.”

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Meri Brown

She also said she told Kody that keeping everyone in the dark about their reunion “is not going to work” and will only result in more tension amongst the rest of the family.

“This is not how a family should operate,” Meri said. “Listen, I am frustrated with COVID. I am frustrated with being alone [at my home]. It’s just stupid.”

In response, Meri countered: “Hey, at least you’re a part of the Brown family.”

“It’s this weird thing,” she told the cameras before addressingher non-romantic relationshipwith Kody. “Am I a sister-wife when I don’t have a husband? I have a husband, technically, but do I? … It’s weird.”

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Sister Wives

Meri then recalled a recent chat the wives had with Kody about their Thanksgiving plans, in whichJanelle BrownandChristine Browndeclared they won’t be celebrating alongside everyone else after being unwilling to comply with Kody’s COVID rules.

“That conversation the other day made me so sad. Like, we were not a family. Everybody is just ready to go and do their own thing for the holidays,” Meri said, before starting to cry. “This isn’t the family that I signed up for. Sitting there in that conversation, everybody didn’t seem like they wanted it.”

“Nobody’s fighting for our family right now, I think, honestly, except for you and me,” Meri responded through tears. “I will tell you, I hate that we’re in this place that we have to fight for it, but I feel like that’s where we’re at.”

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Season 10 Sister Wives Janelle Brown, Christine Brown, Kody Brown, Meri Brown, Robyn Brown

“These family relationships aren’t important anymore. That’s how it’s coming across to me,” she said. “It’s making me really sad.”

Before Season 16 premiered, Christineannounced her separationfrom Kody on Instagram. The pair were together for 25 years.

Sister Wivesairs Sundays at 10 p.m. ET on TLC.

source: people.com